photo friday-mother

a mothers touch.nikon n65 

photo friday's theme this week is "mother"

photo friday-ocean

rushing water.nikon n65 

photo friday's theme this week is "ocean"

she said yes...

nick and ashley 

congradulations, nick and ashley who got engaged last weekend!

photo friday-cool

water fountain.nikon n65 

photo friday's theme this week is "cool"

sliencing your inner critic

think maybe you should cut yourself a little slack? try taking a look at this article...silence your inner critic, you're fine!

...and then there's the good guy

he listens, rubs your feet, comforts the dog, and says yes to whipped cream. what are you waiting for?

you want a man who can make you laugh when you're down and who laughs with you when you're up, a man who listens and asks questions and responds. a man who rubs your feet to put you to sleep and who goes out for cafe mochas when you have to stay up and who knows that on those working all-nighters the answer to any question involving whipped cream is yes.

you want a man who'll wash your hair, who'll cook you dinner, who'll talk to your father on the phone when you can't bear to, who'll read to you on trips, and who's happy when you read(or sing or dance)for him.

you want a man who when he finds out that there are $199 fares to kona suggest you go with your girlfriend while he stays home and takes care of your dog. you want a man who will drive that same dog around all night when he is hallucinating and howling after the vet gave him too much post surgical morphine, because you are up for promotion and have an interview with the dean at 8 a.m.

you want a man who loves many things: his work, his landscape, a sports team, his friends.

you want a man who knows that love is not a pie, that sex is not a sport, that faith(in the world, in each other)is little like a full-time job.

you want a man who knows that women have a secret, and even though he can't know what it is, he is smart enough to want to live in its light.

most important, you want a man who can continue to surprise you, for a week, a month, a year, a lifetime, which is to say a man who has a big imagination, and who is willing to use it to win your heart. -p.h.

i am working on a project that involves lots of magazines that i have been given over the past couple of weeks. while thumbing through, i sometimes take a few moments to read an article or two and this was something i found in the june 2003, issue of o, the oprah magazine.

yes, this is what i want. with a few variations, i couldn't have worded it better. it's not perfection i seek, but i find it nice that through all the experiences and people i have met i do have a general idea of what i want and i think this little article kind of sums it up...

photo friday-father

father.nikon n65 

photo friday's theme this week is "father"

winds of change

i am not sure if am the only one that seems to feel them, those strong winds of change. lately, more and more i can feel them pushing me harder toward something. what that something is i am not sure of at this time. perhaps it is time for some changes to occur in my life. it is not as if my life is so bad, i suppose it could do with some improving here and there. there is a lack of challenges and a creative starvation i have been experiencing.

i guess it comes down to my ability to control what happens to me. i have been dealing with this for a little while now. control, what is that exactly? "a spirit presumed to speak or act through a medium," dictionary.com. what does that mean? i may not be able to control everything, what a job that would be if even i could, but i can control a lot of how i deal with things. this, i think i am trying to work at becoming better at doing.

one example of this is our relationships with others. i asked a friend of mine the other day, where do we find the time to enjoy one another with all the jumping conclusions and making of accusations? i have done this myself and even repeated the behavior. wouldn't it just be easier to have faith in the people we meet? no matter how good things are or how questionable they become we often find a moment or two where we wonder...what is real and what is not? is this for me? is this what i want? is this what i think it is?

i could completely be off base, but put in the right situation under the right circumstances i wonder a lot of things. i suppose that's where ones personal insecurities might come into play. but no matter how secure or insecure one is, i don't feel they are going to become secure if there is nothing to anchor them. i am secure on many levels myself. i am very self-aware. however, put in certain situations i am more vulnerable than most. it's an amazing what a little assurance from one to another can do to improve a situation or a relationship.

i want to be more aware of things. there is nothing wrong with wondering and/or exploring, but sometimes trouble seems to be found by doing so. i am one who wants to improve and not always be in a state of questioning "everything". maybe, the winds of change are pushing me in this direction before am ready for the other changes that are undoubtedly up coming for me.